DUNZO

High on the fact that my stress is flying out the window, but nervous about the fact that it will come back as soon as I realize that I have to get my shit together for summer, I've decided to post. Because I have this problem. And I think it's serious. I have this inability to nap during the day. It all started way back when I was still sleeping in a crib. I refused to nap. In fact, once, I refused so much that I threw up all over the carpet in a fit of rage. (actually, that wasn't just once, that was a strategy I adapted over time) Pretty cool, I know. And granted like every once in a blue moon I'll fall asleep when it's light out, I just can't do it whenever I want to. So I've thought a lot about it, and I think I have a phobia. A ridiculous phobia, yes, but a phobia nonetheless. I think I have this random fear that if I sleep during the day, I'll be missing out and one day I'll look back and realize that I have slept through most of my life. I mean come on it's bad enough we sleep for like 1/3 of our lives. But to use the DAY time to engage in hermit-like activities? No thank you.

I kind of want to burn some of my study notes. Anyone have a fireplace?

I think this race to study for finals, and my incessant camping out at the GSU had turned me into the most bitter person ever to have set foot in... well.. at least in this apartment. And it really doesn't help that all of these random circumstances that were out of my control kept repeatedly kicking me in the ass. Listen, WORLD, when I'm freaking out about one aspect of my life (aka finals) I really don't need other aspects of my life showing up and wreaking havoc. But thanks, life, thanks for adding that in there, I know I'm a lot of fun to fuck with.

It's all good. Now that finals are over, I really don't care about those other havoc-wreaking things. Instead, I'm looking forward to SUN and maybe a beater CAR with bumper stickers and the windows down and BEACHES and... in the more short term sense, my film screening. Actually, it's funny. I'm like way happy to be in the screening, but I hate watching my stuff in front of people. Not to say I'm the only one who gets like that. BUTTTTT it still blows. I get all grimacy and overly critical and sink down into my chair until it's over, and then I'm fine. But I just think it's funny because I've been told that I always look disgusted when I'm watching my stuff on screen, and that's not really good PR, is it? No.

QUOTE OF THE DAY
CamusMcHugh: my class is scheduled for 12:30
CamusMcHugh: and yet, mysteriously, the final is set for nine.

You'd think the people who plan this stuff would realize that the kids in the 12:30 class picked 12:30 because their brains can't function properly any earlier. I think it's a sick joke that the administration likes to play. Finals shouldn't be allowed before 11am.